Thursday, December 2, 2010

The post on the things I could/should be doing

I could be uploading my 11 week photo from last week...but I'm not.

I could be letting you all know about my recent doctor appointment...but I haven't.

I could be pretending that I'm not afraid of a high-risk specialist...but I'm not.

I could be loving the fact that I'm supposed to rest as much as possible, requiring my husband to do everything...but I don't.

I could be encouraged with "think positive, now's your time to milk it" speeches...but I'm not.

I should be excited about getting my house ready for Christmas... but I'm just not.

I should be uplifted by the "possible bed rest from January to June will all be worth it" comments...but I'm definitely not.

I could be thinking positively right now...but honestly? I'm just not.

My negativity is really showing its ugly head lately, and I don't like it. I'm mentally struggling with these complications, and potential fears. I'm struggling with not being able to live up to my responsibilities this early in my pregnancy. I'm struggling with my swelling. I'm struggling with it all.

4 comments:

Brittney Galloway said...

Praying for you today. Hope you can rest, relax, and rest in His great big Hands during this time.

LillyxxGal said...

Saying a prayer for you. I hope the blues pass quickly for you.
xx Sue

Jorden and Kristin said...

What's going on my dear? If you'd like to chat let me know. I did the bedrest thing and the scared out of your mind what if thing too. God's got you in his hands
and he's watching over you. Let me know what I can do for you besides pray!

Annie said...

oh hun :( this makes me sad.
i will be thinking about you and praying for you.