Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Weddings Make You Crazy

No matter what, you can't run from it. Weddings make you crazy, one way or another. Any future brides, or recent brides, or anyone at ALL that has any words of wisdom, it would be so much appreciated right now.

Many have already heard me vent about this, and if you have, I'm sorry. Feel free to skip this blog. Others haven't, but this blog is really for me to really process my thoughts, and to finally understand what I'm feeling. I always feel like I explain myself better in writing rather than to be verbal. Although I have tried to be verbal about it.

Why is it that big things have to happen before my eyes are opened? Why is it during monumental parts of my life do I really see things that have been there all along? Who knows.

I have learned to appreciate my dearest friends and family so much more. It's times like these, such as graduations, weddings, births, new jobs, etc. that I am always reminded of who is ALWAYS going to be there for me. However, I'm always surprised. It's rarely ever who I expect it to be. But I'm pleasantly surprised, and truly touched by those that I never would have expected to be there just to listen, or to jump in without me ever saying a word. It IS always odd though, when those that you would expect to be around for these monumental things don't end up being there. It's such a bittersweet feeling. To feel so lucky to have the ones you always knew you had, to have the ones you never knew you really had, but to realize you don't have ones that you thought you had. And I'm not just speaking from personal experience tonight, but also from watching others go through the exact same thing during different milestones in their life experience these same bittersweet feelings.

Although my wedding planning experience has been very turbulent with these bittersweet feelings, I can't be happier than I am right now. I'm finally less than 1 month from being married to the most wonderful man on the face of this earth. 25 more days people!! We met with our officiant today, made a definitive decision to write our own vows, and even got our marriage license today!! Getting our marriage license was really cool and surreal at the same time. This is REAL. I'm getting married. And yes, I've had well over a year to accept this, but I think it's actually finally hitting me. I'm happy and I'm sad. I can't wait to be married to Jason, but I'm also afraid of the unknown, and sad that my time in my house with my own room with my parents is about to change. They'll read this and probably be surprised that I am actually sadder about that than they think.

We've laughed over these past few days that I'm marrying someone just like my Daddy. He has such a huge heart, and wants to give to everyone that he possibly can. But we've laughed about their same rituals and habits when it comes to watching sports. From flipping between two channels to watch two games, and then watching every bit of the ESPN highlights (why? who knows, they just saw the whole game). And I HAD to crack up when I came to our house tonight. My Dad is the world's best at taking the trash out, and the world's worst about putting a new bag in the trash can after he's taken it out. I can't tell you how many times my mom and I go to throw multiple things away, hands full, only to realize there is no bag in the trash can. I came home, began making dinner, and had a few things in my hands to throw away. I walk across to the kitchen, and my future husband has done the EXACT SAME THING! He's taken the trash out, and forgotten to put in a new bag. He used the excuse that he forgot because he was anxious to come to my parents house and see me, but I see a pattern beginning. It was a GREAT laugh. But I love my Daddy, and think he's a wonderful man. So if I'm marrying someone that has some of his characteristics, I feel like I'm one of the lucky ones.

All right guys, sorry to make your eyes bleed with everything going on in my head tonight, but thanks for making it all the way through if you did!! And like I said, anyone with words of wisdom would be MUCH appreciated right now!



9 comments:

Lisa H said...

I told you that you were marrying your Daddy!! You better get that trash bag thing fixed now. haha

Shannon said...

oh you are great :]

Amy Lynn said...

1. You were crazy before the whole marriage idea.
2. If Ed reads your blog ever, I will never get married.
3. He hardly ever remembers to put a bag in after taking out the trash too, and I almost always throw something in when it is lacking...
4. Does that mean that one day I might be marrying my Uncle Clyde? Wierd!

j said...

I saw your post on another blog and saw you were getting married soon. I don't know if you're nervous, but I'm a newly wed who was literally sick with nerves. I knew God wanted me to marry my husband, and I was thrilled to become his wife- but taking the plunge was a little un-nerving for me. I'll be praying for you and your fiance.

Jarboetwingles said...

Couldn't pass up sending a note after I saw the WKU sign behind you in your photo! I am a WKU grad myself still living in BG. Praying for you as you prepare for the journey to a Godly marriage. I am hoping you have sought the counsel of your minister to help prepare you both for the changes coming. It is so much better to discuss things before they are a problem. Even though we thought we had a good grip on married life our pastor opened our eyes to things we hadn't ever thought of. Best wishes and lots of prayers!

Amy said...

saw your prayre request on mckmamma's blog. trust...been married three years now (two kids). i feel incmpetant and not like a good wife or mother soemtimes but always trust that you can help eachother, God will help you stay together if you just trust Him with it all all.

Amy said...

Trust. God will help you if you just trust Him. It cn be very hard-trust me. Three years (and two kids!) later I sometimes wish to give up but know I cannot and will not because God has called me here and will give me the strength and grace to stay even when times are tough.

Amy said...

oops-sorry i keep commenting cause i thought the first one didn't go through. keep which ones(s) you want. e-mail me at amysblog@pa.net if you want further advice though i am not some sort marriage expert or anything. :)

Bryce and Cecily said...

Hey, you gonna be around next Saturday? I may, just may come in for Saturday alone, but I may, just may need a ride from the airport and then we could have some time to chill before a graduation party I'll fly in for at 1:00. Anyway, just wanted to give you a shout out and see if you'd be available for hanging - ride included or not. :)